countdown to maddness

1.5 weeks to go til written comps. i can tell you i feel black. red. i feel like i did when i quit smoking. my veins are exploding. i am impatient. nothing soothes and i want to tear at people around me. vicious. animal. i'm reverting/regressing. i could scream. i really could--there's no one here to hear me. i paused to consider this. i don't think it would help. i can't study this way. with cards. going back through. it's driving me nuts.

little girl in the field no more. try a shedevil in a straitjacket.