Extemporaneous Musings

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Procrastination

Right now, I'm sitting in the Grad lounge listening to GnR courtesy of H. I feel like throwing my right hand up in the air, index and pinky stretched out while all other fingers curl downwards. Metal sign-language. A sign of acceptance between fellow metal-heads; a sign of readiness to rock; a sign of expression: rage or enthusiasm.

Signs. I'm too tired to think about signs. One thought leads me to Saussure and then to Lacan but my eyes and the rest of my brain pleads with me to stop.

So, I will.

To my left lays Environmental Science. I need to start my syllabus and reading through this text. The picture on the front is of a man standing on a semi-grassy ledge. He stares to his right at the rushing waters of a waterfall. The falling water is so massive that it engulfs 3/4 of the cover, and its rushing molecules sometimes take the form of smoke and other times of thick canopies of brushy-trees. The feeling, though, is of movement. The water moves, anyway, leaving the mossy ledge and edge-standing man strangely solitary and minimalized. The emphasis is upon the enviroment. The roaring cascade of water and lush brown-green soak-filled turf beckons. I, like the l(one)ly man must exit this blogsite in order to explore the world through the square confines of a book. Inside the book, of course, lies the text. It is through this sign-system (a rigid facade of "objectivity") that I and my unborn class will discover the themes upon which we shall form arguments. Only, unlike the unknown man who could be the "No One" of Homer's Odyssey for he stands there with the assurance of one who has mastered certain trials of life, we will embark upon this journey into the construction of argumentative papers together.

A bit over the top, I know. But not bad for procrastination, huh?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Sticky

Living in Las Vegas is bad enough in the middle of July. The heat assaults you from the moment you step outside. In fact, we have broken all of LVs records right now for continuous days of heat. In lieu of that, the entire valley cheered when we learned that our high pressure system would be swept away due to a hurricane threatening the Texas coastline. Nice, right?

No. Dammit. The entire climate has changed overnight. Yesterday the cloud cover kept Apollo at bay, and one would think that the sweat that dripped during 117 degrees would cease to be so prominent; on the contrary, now that the clouds are here, humidity has become my new enemy. Instead of stepping outside to meet the beating sun, I meet a world of sludge instead. The air is thick and the smog thicker. Breathing becomes labored and my body reacts with one unanimous appeal to my senses: "GO BACK INSIDE! HOW NICE THE BED WOULD BE." But obligations such as filing, mail run and then teaching override such beautiful nonsense, and I am forced to trudge through another thick-aired day.

For now, I will get back to work. The cows are a-mooing down on the second floor. That is--The Las Vegas Sun and Review Journal demand to be picked up and placed onto the circ desk.

My vote: anything over 105 degrees or over 20 percent humidity with 95 degrees should automatically call for mandatory naptime after lunch. Those pre-schoolers sure have it good!

Friday, July 08, 2005

Paying the Piper

Wow. Only two glasses of wine--my head hurt this morning and I didn't make it into work. I guess that will teach me not to buy $3.00 wine. It is sooo not worth the agony.

GRE bound. Next Friday I will have passed the GRE general test. (staying positive is key, I think).

so let's tally everything out, shall we?

One bottle of cheap Pinot Grigio: $3.61.

One GRE General Test: $115.00

Passing the GRE general test on Friday: Priceless

. . . Buuuttt . . .

Studying the GRE while getting over a hangover: not worth any price, whatsoever.

And that's called, "Paying the Piper."

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Alone

Alone / A-lone / lone ly

I am sitting cross-legged on the floor of my living room. It looks lived in, that's for sure--my living room, that is. I have paperwork scattered across the coffee table, next to my laptop computer, on which I am now typing.

I am drinking wine. I'm on my second glass of Pinot Grigio and already I feel that very slight disjointedness that comes with the paved way to drunkeness. My eyes heavy from too few hours of sleep blink lazily as I stare into the screen. I wonder what I'll write.

I am lonely. My corazon is away. Jaw-ja. That's where he is today.

I laughed when I first read "Jaw-ja." Oh how he makes me laugh.

But not tonight. Tonight I am sitting on my floor, drinking. On a bright note, my syllabus is finished and I have copies to make tomorrow. One quick stop at the library and I should be ready to go for Monday.

. . . my love is calling me right now.

The loneliness dissipates with the incessent ringing of the phone. . .